My mother was a narcissist.
Even now, just saying that makes my chest tighten.
I grew up never knowing which version of her I would get — the kind one or the cruel one. I walked on eggshells every day, anxious and afraid. I lost my sense of truth. I doubted myself constantly. I didn’t know how to love, or be loved.
For years, I carried so much shame and guilt, as if everything was my fault. I thought I was the problem. But I wasn’t. I was just a child trying to survive.
It took me until the age of 35 to finally start putting the pieces together. Now, at 45, I’ve gone back to school and hold a Certificate in Global Mental Health: Trauma and Recovery from Harvard University.
If you’re going through this, my heart is with you. But know that healing is possible. And that when we finally let go... a life beyond our wildest dreams opens up. You are not broken. You are not alone. You are stronger than you think.
Your truth, your beauty, and your kindness — are ready to shine. They always were.
With love,
Alexandra
Social Anxiety
Healing Tip: It works.
Understanding:
The anxiety comes from what others have said or done. It has nothing to do with you.
Healing Tip:
Every time you start feeling anxious, repeat these words:
I am Loved everywhere I Go. People are Always Kind to Me.
These words are like magic, repeat them over and over again.
Why this works:
Our mind has no sense of time, past, present, and future all happen at once.
By repeating these words, you are telling your mind, I am here in the NOW and I am safe.
The shift happens almost instantly, you will start to feel better, gain confidence.